mind quizzing and random stuff

today was cub scout mind quiz finals

i was a timekeeper, spent a lot of time gish-ing with ernest. 

i really need to get used to my new schedule, cos im not used to spending so much time at cca.

the easy solution is of course to pon, but my cca pts would go down the drain. besides, 02 is fun.

and i have responsibility.

found a cool design for a ferris wheel for open house, whoots.

ate out with my batchmates, not realising that there was actually no meeting after that. wasted an hour of my life.

quote of the day:

"You worthless piece of crap!"

-Heard by one of the mindquiz finalists after the thing.

oh and now to respond to one of Joshua's blog posts:)

this SHOULD NOT be taken seriously. I AM NOT suicidal. (dunno about Joshua tho :P)

so this is it.

i'm going to do it.

and the finely maintained Victorinox Huntsman clicks open

it feels fine, the edge against my thumb

blood.

my breath quickens and deepens.

the red is lost in the red of the handle

blood

and it rotates quickly, precisely, and i feel a strange, distant disappointment at the abomination of oxygen-laden liquid on that precious blade

blood

all the hate and bitterness i have ever felt

you, who called yourself my friend

where are you now?

i don't even know if anyone can see this

and i suddenly want this now

blood

and the razor-sharp edge drags neatly across my throat

my life flows out through my carotid artery

neatly timed splashes and splurts

what i have always wanted

blood

but its mine, 

not yours

damn it all

-Not quite as poetic as Phang's i guess

my thoughts on suicide are very simple

if it is someone that is making you angry, it's best to forgive the guy right?

if you can't forgive him, then kill him.

bloody hell, why kill yourself when its someone else that's the root of all your troubles?

-Scorch